Nov 14, 2008

So sis I'm mental

I’m still awake. I haven't slept in 34 hours. I may take an ambien to knock me out.

My sister is a good person

My sister is a good person

My sister is a good person

My sister is a good person

My sister is a good person

My sister is a good person

My sister is a good person

My sister is a good person

I’m sure she didn’t mean to be do dismissive when I told her I was mental.

I’m sorry to hear that. I don’t know what PTSD and Compassion Fatigue are but does not sound good.


You don’t know that it is? How about you google it you asshat? And now I feel guilty for calling my sister as asshat

You’ll probably feel well again once you take time off. I think changing your life is the sensible thing to do it you feel depressed.

Chin up.


Cos depression is just a bad mood that anyone can shake off /sarcasm

Does anyone else stay awake for two days straight? I can’t even think clearly. I know my sister didn’t mean to hurt me. Like I said, she’s a good person. I’m taking an ambien and going to bed now. Goodnight.

6 comments:

hexy said...

Yes. Yes yes yes. I get horrible, horrible insomnia, and haven't slept unmedicated for years.

There are, roughly speaking, two subsets of depression: typical, and atypical. Generally, typical depression results in insomnia and reduced appetite, and atypical depression results in oversleeping and overeating. They're stupidly named, because "atypical" depression is the most common kind.

Good luck. The sleep thing really kills your resources to deal with everything else.

Mór Rígan said...

Then I guess I have typical depression. It's just so hard to function on no sleep. I'm ready to try anything to get some sleep - ambien doesn't work any more.

Sorry to hear about your insomnia hexy.Good luck to both of us

hexy said...

Ambien usually works OK for me, but I'm on an antipsychotic that knocks me out most of the time as well.

Mór Rígan said...

It's great that you found something that works hexy!

I'm going to start hitting myself over the head ;-)

Jemima Aslana said...

Like so many others your sister is ignorant about mental illnesses. I mean, sheesh, I was just told by a professional consultant in communications and psychological work environment that depression is something I've chosen to have. I wrote a fuming post about it. But seriously. When supposedly knowledgable people are out there telling people that indeed, depression is just a bad mood that we can choose not to have, then what can you expect from medical civilians like your sister? It sounds like she was trying to show compassion and support, but it is really hard to do it right when you don't know anything. She even admitted to not knowing anything. Would you rather she say: "Oh, I don't know anything about that, lemme go lok it up before I express any kind of support for you." Wouldn't that have made you feel slightly more slighted?

Anyway, yeah, the sleep deprivation, been there done that. It sucks. Two winters ago I spent four months with an average of 1½ hours of sleep per day. And that was the average. It was terrible. No wonder my grades from that semester don't look fantastic.

I hope you've found the right treatment for you, and that you'll get better asap. *hugs from a fellow depression sufferer*

Mór Rígan said...

Yeah because of course anybody would choose to have a debilitating, alienating disease. I really get annoyed by the depression=feeling down meme and that needs to stop sharpish.

I know that my sis didn't mean to come across as annoying. She prolly was freaked out. I suppose my problem came from the fact that I'm getting the "I thought you were stronger than that" from so many people. I didn't know that resisting a chemical imbalance takes lots of character.

The upside to dengue fever is that is makes me sleep. I'm getting more sleep this week than in the past six months!

Thanks for commenting Jemima *hugs you back*